The greatest war that Christ took part in and suffered, was the accusation against Him that He called Himself the Son of God. Christ had to suffer and people suffer too, so sufferings are inevitable whatever causes them. Why and for what man suffers? If he suffers because of his sins, he deserves these sufferings, but if he does the Will of God and suffers as well, what is the reason for these sufferings and how are these sufferings to be understood? So there are two things that one should mind in his life: if he is to suffer for Truth or for his own sins. There is no greater suffering than to suffer for Truth!
I ask, what is Freedom. The bird is free when flying – if she cannot fly, it is wrong; fish is free when it swims – if it does not swim, it is not right; fire is alive if it burns otherwise it is dead; the wind is doing its work when it blows – as soon as it stops blowing, it is not able to do any work, it is dead; water is alive and is doing its job when it flows – if it stops flowing, it is not capable to work, it is dead; and at last, man is free only when he thinks – if he would stop thinking, he loses his Freedom - so, the bird flies, the fish swims, the wind blows and man thinks.
Which is the first quality of thought? How Life, in which we are, expresses itself? Through movement. So every movement goes along with feeling too. Imagine a man having only one sense, for instance the sense of touch and tests all things through it – if they are solid or soft, cold or warm, etc. If it were so, what his idea about Life could be? He would have a very elementary idea about Life. Imagine another sense appears – the sense of taste through which one perceives things as sweet or bitter, salty or sour etc. This sense provokes in man the desire to eat. And so, man eats for the only reason to taste things. The next after the sense of touch and taste is the sense of smell in man. Now he wants to know things from a distance or closely, to test how it smells – if it is pleasant or not. Next comes the desire in man to hear how living beings around talk and to discern between them. Hearing is of help here; and the last comes the interest to see the outer appearance of things – man wants to see what has been written on each object and the sight helps him in this. Through these five feelings or senses man enriches his understanding about Life. So, by the sense of touch one tests the quality of objects; by the taste he understands their content; by the sense of smell he distinguishes different smells, good or bad. By hearing he studies the sounds of living beings and comes into relations with them. By the sight man studies the whole outer appearance of objects.
So, through his five senses man comes to meet the outer world around him. However, how can he know the Divine Love, how can he know God? Unless he can feel, man is not able to know God and to accept the Divine Love. So, if one can not feel the Divine Love, he can not think; if he can not think, he can not be free, he is dead. So, who does not have the Divine Love in himself, he can not think, he is not free, he is dead, and via versa – if one thinks in a right way, he is free, he carries in himself the Divine Love.
Many people want to know the reasons for suffering. I say: there are many reasons for suffering. For instance, if someone’s head, chest and stomach are in good health and if one leg is bad, he will feel pain and will suffer; or if his hands and legs are healthy but hie ear is not well, he also will feel pain and suffering. The painful conditions may cause inner disharmony in the organism and the inner disharmony is a result of that sin condition which one has done himself.
You say: “Why does man suffer?” – because he has gone away from God and does not know how to come back. And being away from God he is in a state of one who can not walk on earth well – walking he is slipping all the time and is falling down. This happens to everyone who does not love God. The first man being put on the path of Love, manifested that he did not love God – through his first step on this path he slipped and could see his weakness. He had no Love for God, because he ate from the forbidden tree. People’s suffering today manifests that they also do not love God. God said to Adam: ‘You must not eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil.!” However, the black adept came to Eva and said: “If you eat the fruits of this three, you will achieve a lot of knowledge and will become gods”; she felt convinced of his words, ate these fruits and gave Adam as well to try – and they realized that they were naked.
You want to know now this happened with the first man and woman – it happened exactly as this happens now with you. Every day you repeat what your ancient father did – what Adam and Eva had done in the past, today’s people do every day. And they create a wrong philosophy, saying: “We actually eat from the forbidden fruit but today and tomorrow we will make our life right.’ No, this is a philosophy that does not exist, there is no philosophy for tomorrow – the true philosophy is for the moment of now. The very moment we go wrong, the day ends and the night comes. The tragedy of life is that people want to make right their things in the night. Imagine you walk trough a dark black night – no star, no moon in the sky and you take the wrong way and say: “Well, I will find the way, anyhow.” What way can you find, don’t you see there is no ray of light and you are completely in the dark – you can only go a wronger way and not be able to find the right path.
People today often call to mind the story of the first people and say: “What were Adam and Eva thinking about?” Exactly the same what you are thinking now about. For example, someone who believes in God, is thinking: “I want to have got a nice house, to wear nice clothes, to drive a nice car around the town, to be visited by rich people, but I have no any money in my pocket.” And in a short time this man comes up to another’s safe full of gold coins. Now he is thinking: “If I take some of these money, my wishes will be fulfilled.” He is hesitating and fighting within himself and in the end he says to himself: “Who will see me if I take some of these coins only once and that is all and all my things will go well.” I say: the another’s safe represents the Tree of knowledge of good and evil. I ask if there is anyone who’s things went well after he put his hand into someone else’s safe? No one. If one has done this he put his deeds in more troubles than before. Alas, one can walk near another’s table full of food and think: “If I eat of this food my things will be fine and my life will go better.” And he takes of someone’s food and his thingss keep being in the same condition.
I say: “ It is necessary to consider in a right way the phenomena of Nature and Life. The present-day world, since it was created, is like a rich table full of food and lots of possibilities that lead into temptation. Everyone is in a hurry to sit around the table and take from the food. However, being in a haste he can sit at one of these places of temptation and this is the very moment he loses his health. The same is about books – there are books that you shouldn’t even touch. You pass by a book and think: “I will open it only to have look at it to see what is written there.” This is the way soldiers behave at war: when walking to do a task to another army unit, one sees from a distance something flashing on the road; he thinks that someone’s lost a nice pocket knife or purse and he drops quickly to take it. However, it comes out to be a bomb and if you touch it, it would explode in your hands. I say: taking another man’s belonging is a bomb which will explode in your hands unavoidably. You need neither the knife nor the purse of your fellowman – you do not need anything that belongs to someone else. Whoever understands the law of Truth, he will agree with this. God has put everything in its proper place so that no one could take away what He has ordered.
Many people think, that if they go to a library they can rummage and take books without permission. No one can touch books or other things without permition. Nowday’s people are very odd, because they do wrong things every day, rummage into other people’s safes and libraries, however they say to everyone they meet: “let me tell you how to love God, how to love your fellowman and what to do for yourself.” They do not know what to do themselves but wish to teach others; they have not seen Angels or God but preach about God and Angels. However, when alone they ask themselves: “Is what we are preaching true?” I am only talking of a fact happening to you; the same happenes to priests, to preachers and to governments as well. For instance, someone comes to power and says: “I will put Bulgaria in order”. How is he going to do this? If he would be able to, he would not become a minister first of all. Someone becomes priest and says: “I will put in order the world.” Who would be able to settle the world, he would not become a priest. One can say: “I will become a man.” If you had not became a man yet, this will be more difficult in future. To become a good man does not depend on you – who has created you, only He has the right and the power to make you a man. If one gets rich and is not able to use his richness in a proper way, he will be in the situation of the donkey that has only to carry the burden of his master. If one becomes powerful and can not use his power properly, he will be in the situation of the buffalo that is only pricking with his horns. In the true sense of the word, man is only one who thinks in a right way.
So, the first quality of a true man is Love. Without Love one is an animal – he will bring in his life only sins and crimes. And however he thinks and feels for his life as a whole, from the beginning till the end, there will be only sins and crimes. As soon as one is left by Love he will be exposed to sufferings. People without Love in themselves cannot stand the man of Love. If they meet him they say: “Let him out of here!” Isn’t this the way the Jewish did to Christ? They used to say: “Take away this man, crucify him because he calls himself the Son of God.” The Jewish people wanted to subjugate Christ - some of them wanted him to make them happy, to help them to marry good women, to have good children, etc. However, Christ used to say: “I came to do neither My will nor yours but I came to do the will of My Father who sent Me here. I am the Son of God, sent to Earth to teach people how to live.” They did not feel contended with His reply and said: “Such a man who does not want to do our will, we will put on the cross”. Isn’t that same story repeated itself in the world today? Who has not crucified the Divine in himself? One can say: “There is some inner torment in me.” What is it? This is because you have lost your Peace. Whoever is not saying the truth looses the inner Peace. Most of the people today lie to each other. Also, many people do not admit the lack of Love and say: “We have Love but outer conditions and people around us cause us difficulties.” No, the outer conditions are not the reason for difficulties in Life but the inner conditions in men cause all sufferings, troubles and contradictions. Why does hungry man suffer? Because he has not the inner food, which is the Word. Why does man suffer? Because he has no Love. Did Christ’s disciples suffer? They endured a lot of persecutions, victimizations and tortures but they did not suffer – they were great martyrs and endured everything because of Christ. They had the Love of Christ in themselves. Whoever has not Love will not be able to endure even the slightest suffering.
You say: “If Christ comes on Earth for a second time, we will meet Him as we should.” If Christ comes on Earth now and if you have no Love in your hearts, you will put Him to the cross again. You will ask Christ for rich tables, for nice clothes and houses, you will want cars and cabs and if He will not satisfy your wishes, you will crucify Him as you did two thousand years ago. I ask if all your wishes be realized what would you benefit from this? What do kings benefit from having all their comfortable things, what happened to the Russian king who had possessed such richness’s? History gives us a good example through the life of one of the most ancient and wise kings, Solomon. He used to live in the best richness and glory with three hundred women with him and nine hundred concubines. God gave him a test how to learn the God’s Wisdom and knowledge but he couldn’t pass it. He wanted, with these women as his secretaries and counselors, to sort out the world, to make reasonable laws. However, he didn’t succeed, he gave himself to eating and drinking, to rich life and thus he only threw the world into more confusion. Due to this fact the Jewish have not been able to sort out themselves yet. I say: if one wants to marry, he should have only one woman. Who is she? – Love. Who has no Love, he can not become a man. A woman who wants to marry, needs one man. Who is he? – Wisdom.
So, who will not accept the God’s Love, he can have, like Solomon, three hundred women and nine hundred concubines but he will not be able to do anything. The number 300 presents the extreme limit in one’s Life – no one can have more that three hundred women. It is enough for him to have a quarrel with each one of them and he will be like an empty barre. And what do people do with empty barrels? You know – they take them outside and roll them. One can say: “I am going to marry”- what means he wants to go away from God. Lots of the marriages today are related to evil. If you understand by marriage as matching two sensible souls, this makes sense. People today want to marry and to be happy. No, if one will marry, he should cherish to find God – one should look for God in his every wish. Someone can say: “I wish to eat” – so you have the wish to find God through the food and to know the Love of God. As soon as one can find God and know His Love, he will achieve everything. You say: “We know God, we have seen Christ”. You may have seen Christ but man does not benefit from such a vision. He can see many things but the important thing is the way he sees them. It is likely if one’s leg is in pain and he can know this; however, but this is not enough, one should know the reason of this pain. If one knows the reason of his pain, he can heal it.
There is one important/substantial question nowdays people have to answer: Did the fruits in the ancient times fall down from the trees? At the beginning of their life they didn’t – they were on the branches untill someone would come and pick them. However, after the fall of man the fruit also began to fall, for many reasons, because of the wind or something else. So, untill man is a fruit on the Divine tree, untill he lives pure and holly life, he will have the Love of God in himself and will never fall down from this tree – he will be on it forever. If he has no Love, he will fall down from the tree like a rotten fruit and will get dry. What will happen with man then? Someone who will be more foolish and know-nothing than him will come to teach him how to believe in God, how to repent, how to turn to God, etc. What does it mean to turn to God? If one turns his face to the world and his eyes are opened to it but he has no Love in himself, he will be yeilded into temptation.
How and why are people from the world being tempted? A young woman looks at a young man and likes him and immediately wants him for herself. And visa versa – a young man meets a beautiful girl, likes her, wants her for himself. The temptation comes through the desire. There is nothing wrong if the girl likes the man or if the man likes her but the very wish to have him as her husband and the wish for her as his wife, that is wrong. And they begin to go after each other, to be jealous and so on. Who has given the woman and the man the right to keep an eye on each other, to follow each other as the shadow follows the man? They should know first of all that what they are looking after is the shadow and not the person. If I have a candle in my hand and you follow it, what would happen to you? Imagine the candle burns down – what will happen to you? You will lose sight of me and will fall into darkness again. That reasonable thing in man you are looking for is somewhere behind the candle where your look can not reach. The Sun is rising up and you can see its light, however, like the candle, you have not found yet that reasonable thing into man, which means that you have not reached the Truth held by Sun. Your wish is nothing but lighten candle, held by some reasonable Being. You run after this wish, i.e. after this candle and as soon as it burns you lose your wish. And you feel shame later for not being able to achieve it. This happens to everyone who falls in love in this foolish, fleeting way. After some girl has been with her beloved, with her love, she was feeling ashamed to say where she has been, so she says instead: “I went somewhere”. She does not dare to say she went to here love. Why? Because she went to see what he was doing, whom he was meeting, etc. She worries whether the candle he is carring will burn soon and if she will find herself into dark again. The same happens also to the young man – because of the same reasones he does not say that he is going to his love.
I draw now an inner conclusion about things to help you to see where unhappiness in Life comes from. For example, an idea comes into someone’s mind to build a house; he begins to think that if he will do this all his things will be all right. And he is thinking about this hous all the time. I say: “God has given everyone nice, well done house. What would you like more? What a better house can exist than the human body? If with this house given you by God you are not able to become human beings, you will be less human with houses made from stones and bricks. You say: “ I would like at least to earn some money, to become rich man and all my things will be alright.” If you are looking for riches – what bigger riches than those given you by God? He has given everyone inner riches. If you can not be a man with the inner riches, given you by God, you can not become man with your outer riches. The idea that people’s happiness is in the houses, in the outer richness – these are delusions one should release. Delusions are the lures in the world and you should stay far from them.
As I watch people all round the world I see them as slaves of their ambitiouns. They are like gunpowder – if you touch them they flare up right away. Everyone has high opinion of himself. It is not bad, only you have to prove it. I go near somebody and say to him:
Your clothe is dirty and is not good.
It is not possible, it was costly some time ago!
Well, but not now.
How can you go offend me!
You can feel offended but I am telling you the truth.
I say to someone else:
You do not think at all.
It is not possible, I have a mind!
Well, you have it and you were thinking well before but now your mind is not good and you can not think in a right way.
To another one I say:
You do not have Love in your heart.
How it can be, my heart is burning of love and you say I have no love.
Well, it was before but now it is only fuming.
You used to say: “When Christ comes, everything will be all right.” What will Christ find on Earth when he comes here? He will find minds that glimmer and hearts that fume. It is not enough for you to wait for Christ to come to put garland on your head, to take you on chariot and go to Heaven, and to say: “Here is a man amongst the great people on Earth who was a reformer and was ruling the world.’ The words of Christ must be truth. If Christ would say something like this about someone, he should really be such a person. No one should think he is a great preacher or reformer, or a majesty. What is important for man is to do God’s Will as a Son of God despite the situation he is in – whatever would God order him, he should do. And whatever he does, he will carry it with himself through times and eons. Is it necessary for the apple tree that gives fruit to be recommended by people? Its fruits are its recommendations – the apple tree with its heavy fruits is saying: “I did what God ordered me.”
And someone will come to me to ask if he is a believer or not; if he has found the Path or not. You must know this by yourselves. If you suffer, you are already on the Path; if there is dust around you, you are following the Path. The dust represents the temptations in the way – you should understand all these things. Everyone goes the way but falling down and getting up. When he falls down, it means he is being expelled from the Paradise. He prays and repents and the next day he will be accepted in Eden again. He goes the right way for some time and when doing something wrong – he is being put outside again and after he cries and prays – they accept him later. The same way Adam sinned and appeared to be out of the Paradise. He went down to the hell where he cried, repented until he was accepted into Eden again. Since Adam had sinned, he had been in Paradise and out of it many times - in the morning he stays in Paradise, in the evening he goes to hell. Nowdays people are also in Paradise in the morning, being joyous and when they do something wrong, they are put out of Paradise down to the hell. They cry there and pray – and they are accepted in Paradise again. This story is repeated again and again until the day comes when man will no do wrong any more and will keep his place in Paradise. Teach one now how to live and put him in Paradise and after some time he goes wrong and finds himself in hell in the evening. When a man can not keep his place in the paradise, he says: “Well, I couldn’t go right this life but the next time I will. I see I was not able to stay on the Path so I would like to marry, to set up my things at least.’ God had not sent you on Earth to marry. “Well, I would like to be rich at least.” God has not sent you on Earth to accumulate riches – the richness and the marrige come later. God has sent you to learn – to acquire Love.
I say: if you see Life through the eyes of Love, you will understand the meaning God has placed in it. Life is meaningless without Love. For instance, the stones that surround us have meaning only in connection with Love – without it they are just ruins. When you climb up some of these rocky peacks around you, it is possible to fall down, hurt yourself and then you will say: “These stones are so bad!” As soon as you look at them from a distance, you will see their beauty and if you fall you say they are bad. They are bad because God has not created them - the ruins around you are not Divine creatures. I mean by the word stone reasonable being who has the characteristic of Love. If you fall down on a stone that has love in itself, you will be taken gently in his hands, will be put next and will be told: “You fall in a good way, you have learnt the art of falling.” And you will say to the stone: “And you can catch one very well and protect him from being hit.” However, if you fall on some of those other stones you will hit your leg and will be told: “Who gave you the permission to jump on me? If you can do this, I also can hit someone’s legs.”
So, I would like you to keep the thought that suffering in your lives is due to lack of Love. This does not mean that you have no Love but that your love for your desires is stronger than the Love for God. The example about the young woman and the young man can make my thought more clear: she wants to serve God, however, as soon as she meets some young man whom she likes, she leaves God because of him. And visa versa – the man wants to serve God and when he meets a girl, he follows her and leaves his ideal behind. Eventually they can get together and marry because they want to help the world. How can they help the world – they both are unhappy and their things go bad.
This situation is similar to the next example: two crippled are in hospital, their legs amputated. The one tells the other:
I am thirsty, can you get up, please, and give me a glass of water!
How can I do this, my legs have been amputated. You go and bring me too!
So am I in your situation too.
I ask who will help whom. This shows that the Good in the world has not been applied completely. So, the young man follows the beautiful girl, however she is like an empty purse. She is pritty and nice physically, but inside there is nothing. The young man is like an empty purse as well. Why do you need empty purses in your life? Life does not need the forms of the purses but their content. The gold coins into the purses mean the inner riches of man. I say: if people’s wishes have any content, they are on their right places. And only when the Divine, given you by God, is the Life’s content, Life is meaningful.
Some of you now who are at the bivouac, say: “Lets go up the mountain!” By the word mountain, high peack I mean the reasonable principle in Life. And when we climb the mountain to know what God wants from us, this will be meaningful. And when we go down to the valey to bring what we have achieved in the mountain, this will be meaningful. So if we go up to God no taking anything from Him and when going down amongst people for giving them nothing, we are people condemned to suffering.
An important question asked by many of the people today is: Why did Christ come on Earth if He new He would be crucified? No one among ordinary people wants to be crucified. Any way, everyone who comes into the world among people to preach a new idea will be crucified in the end. What should you do with the ideas you preach to people? You have to appeal to God and He will put you in a more advanced society that will understand you and say: “A prophet came among us”.
One can say: “I love God”. If you say this you will be tempted to think you are rightous and know everything, that you can heal many illnesses and can do all you want, etc. It is a delusion to think like this. One who has Love inside should know that Love itself does not cure people neither gives riches but only makes a connection between people and God. When man makes a connection with God, he will solve all the problems immediately. However, Love itself does not give anything.
It happens one comes to me and says: “You do not love me.” “Well, the truth is, when I sleep I do not love you.” “ But you have to!” If you want to know if I love you, you need to know first of all if I love God. If I love God, I will love you too; if I do not love God, I will not love you. Life begins with the love for God. The Love for God is an inner, mystical relation. Life is meaningful only with God; out of Him Life is meaningless and is a mass of contradictions. And whoever you love then will tell you: ”I do not need your love.” For instance, you say: “I love the king”. Why does the king need your love – he does not suspect even that you love him. Or, you can love a sent and keep his portrait in front of you and look at it the whole day. However, there are sents who are not sents at all, they themselves wonder how people have announced them as sents and have put them in the churches to bow to them. Only the person who holds inside himself living Love and in whom God manifests Himself, can be sent. One can think he is righteous and knows everything, that he is a sent, but I say: to think you are sent is one thing and to be really like this, is something else.
As I am talking this to you now, there is something hidden inside you that tells you: “Do not listen to him, this is not exactly the truth what he is talking to you.” This wispering comes from entities that seduse you and have no understanding about Life. They are telling you: “Is it possible for one to live without money? First of all, we have created money and one should live for them because they will save him.” I ask where these beings had taken this gold? It will be obvious as if they had robbed God and have put their name on this gold. No, this is not truth. Gold belongs only to God. When Christ was asked if it was necessary to pay a duty to Caesar, He answered: “Render therefore to Caesar the things that are Caesar’s, and to God the things that are God’s”1. So, something that is God’s, someone used it and put his signature on it and presented it to people as its own. The verse: “Render therefore to Caesar the things that are Caesar’s, and to God the things that are God’s” I translate this way: give your delusions people, say the Truth only to God and keep Love. What do people do? They say the Truth only to themselves.
Today I want you to remind something you used to know and were told about many times. For instance, you ask yourselves often: “When will we save ourselves, when will we achieve our desires?” And when you do not achieve what you want, you say: “This is a hard work!” No, this is the easiest one. As long as your love for things that are temporary and transient is stronger than your love for God, you will be always in the transient and temporary life and will not achieve what you want. And you will get older untimely, will prop up on sticks and will say to yourselves: “Oh, we have already got old”. I say: when one is getting old, he is getting poor as well. However, the word old age means, in its right sense, achieving of experience and in the Scripture it was said about it: “Whoever relies on God, he will rejuvenate and his body will renovate”. Who lives in God is never getting old and achieves Eternal life. Christ said: ‘This is a life Eternal, to know Thy, the Only very God.’ Who knows God will never get old and will never die.
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1 Matthew 22:21